Everything will be okay

I'm in a horrible mood. No pretending about it - I'm looking for ESL ideas to do a lesson on Thanksgiving tomorrow with my students, and I realized I'm going to miss entirely the Thanksgiving parade. It's amazing the things that get to me the most over here.



Also I have a wretched cold. I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that, over a period of three days, it went from summer to winter. So I'm sick, and to get any kind of medicine (over the counter is what I'm talking about here) you have to talk to the pharmacist. No advil sitting out in the grocery store or anything convenient like that. So I'm taking cold medicine that turns me into a complete zombie, and barely makes me feel any better. I don't own a coat heavy enough to keep me warm in this weather, and buying one has been complicated by the fact that Israel sells clothes in sizes -0 to 4, none of which fit this girl. It's been a shameful, sad, pathetic, and depressing two days, I'll say that much for sure. Add into all of this the fact that I think I had a rather massive misunderstanding with a friend back home, totally unbeknownst to them, and now I feel like a complete moron.



And you know what? There are some good things happening - but I don't have time to write about them right now. And I don't even feel like it. I'm in a wretched mood, I feel like crap, and all I want to do is take the bus home and fall into bed where I plan to be unconscious for at least the next twelve to fourteen hours. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!



And you know what? If I let myself, I'd go on and on about how I really am not as miserable as I sound - because I'm not. But I don't have the energy and I figure anyone who takes the time to read this pathetic little diary of my life in this country knows that about me. There's actually quite a lot I'm thankful for, and being in this country is one of them, but something I'm not quite ready to admit right now. Besides, if I let myself be in anything but a bad mood right now I'd start crying and maybe wouldn't stop till sometime after New Year's.