Emotions

Well I'm sorry it's been so long since I've shared my thoughts and experiences. I honestly don't even know what all I had to say, though I know there was a lot I did want to say. I'm in Monticello, FL right now visiting Brianna (one of my most wonderful friends, who just happens to be Bethany's cousin).  Her mom, who I call Aunt Sherri (cause she's Bethany's aunt and might as well be mine) is amazingly wonderful. I kept her up until 2:00 AM this morning talking, and it was just spectacular conversation, not just shallow banter. She's wonderful. Bethany also came up for the weekend so it's been really just an answer to so many different prayers. I went to Pensacola on Thursday and it was really just a spectacular disaster, for more reasons than I could even list if I wanted to. Thankfully Melissa went with me, I'm not sure if I would have made it out with my sanity had she not been there. Anyway though, after a day like that, a weekend like this is JUST what the doctor ordered.



I find myself getting more and more emotional lately. Today, Brianna and Bethany and I were in Borders, and I was looking at the dog books, and I started to cry when I saw a book on Bichons. I got myself under control though, but then when I was telling Brianna and Bethany about it, I started to cry again! Then I was washing my hands in their bathroom, and they have the Dial Complete soap (which is SO thoroughly amazing, you should try it if you haven't) and I got all teary-eyed, because that's the soap I had in my trailer, and it just reminded me of actually having a home and all my dogs. Poor Beth and Brianna have had to keep on reassuring me that I'm not just losing my mind, that this is a major life change and transition and all, and it's going to be difficult, but I still feel like an overly emotional LOSER.



Since I know that my time in this area is rapidly coming to a close, I've been trying to take as many mental snapshots as possible, and since I'm a sentimental sap, I thought I'd share a few of them with all of you here. Here are some of my favorites:



1) Riding down I-10 with Melissa on Thursday afternoon with the windows down and Meredith Brooks song (whose title will not be named as it involves profanity). It was THE perfect summer moment, especially after such a horrid day.



2) Sitting around the table here talking with Bethany, Brianna, and Aunt Sherri about the large intestine and colons, how enemas work, and the gross things I've seen come out of dog's butts. 



3) (This is an older one, but wonderful nonetheless.) Sitting on the floor in Alex's Graceville Manor apartment the day before he left for Texas, with him and we were watching a storm come in and head back out. (The purpose was to finish cleaning the apartment, and that was eventually accomplished.) It was wonderful though, just sitting and talking before my very wonderful friend had to leave.



4) Today when Bethany told me that she had told Edward Daive and I would be staying with them for a few days and that if his allergies acted up, he could take medicine. I tried to thank her, but I doubt she will ever understand how much that meant to me. (Much of the controversy regarding my family encouraging me NOT to come home before leaving the country centers on Daive's presence.) The fact that she loved me enough that she wanted me to come and stay with her that she would do that for me....it meant the whole world to me.



Geez, I'm a sap. I'm about to start crying...the kind where you're gasping for breath (Haley, Beth, and Brianna, you know what I'm talking about specifically)...so I'm going to go lay on Brianna's bed and be social. I love you all (those reading, not just the people in Brianna's room).